Despite the throes of shouldering malignant devices,
I am still fond of my resolve,
Spades of incessant onslaughts sought to drain my hope from me like blood to a grateful needle,
I have confessed my power to conquer the professedly impossible to the world,
I bested the wretched with flames and held again begotten peace in hand,
While terrors of the night rocked me in my sleep I found solace in the mental chaos and threw doubt to the dancing flames,
Hands burnt to char and wrists bruised with chain.
The embraces of tranquil relapse massage the trite irrationality-
Never beyond my grip of sanity,
Intelligence of oneself putting shields to the trying tyrant,
Armies in thought clashing blades with the beasts,
Possessing advances without defeat,
Again, and again into incredible escapes,
I have found my definition of what means emotionally safe,
I can no longer stand on fragile ground holding eternity in my hands,
This is a story of my triumph.
Days have stopped counting backwards,
The sun has stopped startling the bats,
The smell of stability no longer churns the morning stomach,
I am no longer hungry for love,
I am no longer blind to place,
I am no longer slung asunder,
And I am no longer ungrateful to God’s grace.
I am thankful.